I think I’m in love….

I think I’m in love. Yeah… It’s been a while, and I almost forget how it feels like. But I think now I’m in those kinda situation right now.

Why do I think that I’m in love, and not some kinda ‘fling’ that comes and goes? Well, for once, I can’t stop thinking about her. From the moment I wake up in the morning, She’s the first thing that comes to my mind. And she probably the last thing I remembered before I fell into sleep every night.

I know it sounds crazy, right? Yeah, I even thought that myself. I must be crazy, because it’s illogical. Believe me, I’m a very logical person. I digest almost everything through ‘logical factory’ in my brain. When I think it’s illogical, I’m fast to point out how illogical that is and willing to argue over it, because I think I have a better argumentation.

So, I often asked myself, what is happening to me? I even ordered myself to stop thinking about her so much, and even try to tell myself that that person that I always think of, may not even think about me at all…:(. But, that doesn’t stop me from thinking about her, almost all the time.

And another sign of me falling for her is, I got butterflies in my stomach every time I’m near her, talk to her, or even look at her picture. I have to admit, I repeatedly open her Facebook’s page just to see what she’s doing; and sometimes I found unpleasant surprise at her page , but that doesn’t stop me from looking at her page. That is something I normally wouldn’t do. Usually I’m very cool and confident with women. But not with her. I’m clueless when I’m near her. My brain just shut down. I can’t find words that I usually easily utter to other women.

I guess it’s true what people say about a person who’s in love. They are in head over heel over the person whom they fell in love with. That’s what I feel right now.

I guess love is indeed a strong emotion. No wonder that God created universe just for Him to be able to demonstrate His love.