Nglamar, oh nglamar….

What a stressful period for me, and it’s not over yet. I still have to endure this uncertainty I don’t know for how much longer.

Yeaah.. it’s about job. Now I don’t have job, and I’m frantically looking for job. I’ve been out of the job for the past 2.5 years now, well the 1st 2years I spent on getting my master degree, so that doesn’t count

So, after I was graduated back in September 2009, I have this huge confidence that I’m gonna get the job very soon. I mean, who wouldn’t want to take a Master of Strategic Management from the most prestigious University in this country. And adding to that, I have four years working in a multinational company, a real multinational company (we have people from all over Asia,e.g. Japanese, Singaporean, Indian, Malaysian, Philipinos, and even one Burmese).

So, I started to send applications. when none of those applications were responded, I tried to console myself, maybe it’s because of fasting month, so the recruitment is slowing down. Then, after the lebaran holiday I sent some more applications, and neither were responded. And, I tried to reason again, oo maybe because it’s almost end-of-year,so companies will start recruiting in the new year.

And so it goes. Until now. I think I’ve sent more than 300 applications, with only so little (less than 5) answered/responded.

And now I’m beginning to feel the pressure building up. I’m so stressful. Many people gave me suggestions, some say to start of my own business. Well, I don’t know. I don’t see myself as an entrepreneur type. Maybe I’m just too afraid to step in to something so unpredictable as entrepreneur.

That’s just me I guess. I’m a kind of person who analyze everything. Sometimes it’s good, but there’re also times when I just have to go with my gut,but I just couldn’t do it. My mind is always full of “what ifs”, thinking of thousands of scenarios possible. And those kind of thinking hindered me from ‘jumping into the water’

BTW, I just offered a position as a ‘financial consultant’. Well basically it’s a sales job. I dunno. I never thought of myself to become a sales type. I know I can be very persuasive, and I think I’m very good at identifying people’s reaction, so I would know if someone is interested in what I’m talking or she/he just playing polite with me. But, the thought of becoming a salesperson scares me a little bit. i mean, I usually shrugged off salesperson without having the courtesy to listened and to know first what he/she offered. Guess I’m afraid of rejection.

Rejection, yeah.. I think that’s the reason why I analyze so much. I’m so afraid of failure,so I thought of different scenarios, and try to have the best way to ‘enter’, and be a success.

I don’t know.. I just don’t know. If there’s one thing that keep me going, is the thought that it’s not gonna be like this forever, and hope that the it’ll turn up and becoming better. Keeping my fingers crossed for that

Twitter, maenan baru…

Sebelum ini aku gak suka nge-blog. Bikin blog ini aja pun karena iseng, sekalian supaya keliatan savvy,’n keren… punya blog euy… blogger euy.. Padahal, isinya… cuma 2 posting (ini post yang ke tiga)

Beberapa bulan yang lalu (ya.. udaaa lamaa siii.. :p), aku mendaftar account Twitter. Ya.. lagi-lagi, hanya demi sekedar gengsi. Gw kan generasi internet, apa kata dunia nanti kalo ditanya orang “eh.. elu punya twitter gak?”, kalo njawab “gak punya,.. apaan sih twitter??” kok spertinya katrok banget…..

Memang sih, sampai sekarang, twitter belum jadi mainstream untuk cara berkenalan. Kalau dulu berkenalan, terus bertukar nomer handphone. Sekarang, berkenalan bertukar Pin BB dan account Facebook . So, karena gw belum punya BB, ya.. account facebook lah dijadikan andalan untuk kenalan

Tapi, belakangan ini, aku mulai lebih banyak membuka twitter. Terutama setelah aku menggunakan aplikasi twitter untuk handphone. Pertama kugunakan Snaptu. Tapi, kemudian aku pindah ke Gravity. Pertamanya aku gak tau gimana pakai twitter, dan menurutku kok twitter membosankan. Entah apa yang membuatku tiba-tiba mulai doyan lagi dengan twitter. Mungkin dengan semakin banyaknya orang2 yang aku follow, maka timeline ku semakin penuh, dan aku mulai merasa twitter semakin menarik

Belakangan ini aku malah lebih sering membuka twitter ketimbang membuka Facebook. Di laptopku pun aku meng-install TweetDeck, aplikasi pembaca twitter, sehingga memudahkan untuk memaca twit,membuka foto2 dari twitpic.com tweetphoto.com dll. Aku juga mulai terlibat diskusi2 kecil tentang berbagai hal, mainly tentang politik sih..

Tapi, one thing I like about twitter. Ia merapatkan jarak antara para pesohor dengan orang biasa. Tidak jarang twit ku dibalas oleh pesohor-pesohor. Bukan itu saja, twitter juga membuka wawasan lebih luas karena banyak orang-orang yang ku follow adalah orang-orang pintar.

Semakin kemari, kayaknya twitter makin asyik saja. Persis ketika Facebook baru mulai muncul, ada keasyikan tersendiri melihat-lihat timeline orang-orang. Melihat profile orang-orang tersebut… Lagi pula, twitter, karena hanya membatasi post dengan 140 karakter menyulitkan bagi spammer untuk nge-junk di twitter. Salah satu keuntungan twitter daripada Facebook, yang, IMO, semakin penuh sesak plus dengan tawaran2 aneh berbau junk/spam

So, what’s next? Gak tau juga… Tapi aku pikir dunia social media akan terus bergerak, dan killer2 application akan tetap bermunculan. Sekarang ini Facebook dengan 300 juta lebih penggunanya adalah king of Social network. Tapi, twitter segera menyusul, walaupun twitter kalau tidak salah baru punya sekitar 60 juta pengguna.  So,.. might enjoy it while it lasts… Masa mau balik lagi ke jaman Friendster…